Tuesday, November 24, 2009
O n in case yr wondering, im over n done with things! i ve moved on:)
n nothing else is gonna make me weak.
its lyk, maximum emotional strength already.
i like........:)))
:)
4:02 AM
yah yah. my blog almost died la. er, i allowed it to die. i din feel like spouting my usual rubbish... din even feel like toking.. till recently.. i shut out.. ppl may hav realised. im sorry fer all tat. i kinda lost it in me lar.. im oki now. very much happier in fact:) anyway tis place, no more bull crap bout any unwanted ppl..
niways. im at nyp now. *faints (i neva wanted to step into tis place eva but c...)
wit joshy.... he's lyk 'werking on skul stuff'... ya lyk real..lol. i m bored. da sinus is killing me.. i ve not done anything bout my panda eyes! aargh. haiz, its been sooo long since i blogged.. i dunno wat to sae.. too many things.
tonites pay:) i lyk. i was considering sum retail therapy.. but i ve jus got too many things to clear. looks lyk shopping gotta wait till dec:( but nonetheless i ll do bit of self pampering lar... somehow.. lil things make me very happy wat.... lol
im gonna do wat i normally do. c if i ve becum any beta. tym fer mood check!
I am: Maha:)
I want: sth tat ll make my stoopid flu disappear!
I Wish: i cud have 5 double choc donuts now now now:)
I hate: ryt now, nuthin:)
I miss: Uma, renuka n khatijah:(
I wonder: wat tym tis joshy is gonna finish his werk n tok tok to me. im bored.
I hear: josh sighin!
I regret: taking tat stoopid NORTHERN HEMISPHERE JAB LAR!
Im not: unhappy
I dance: each tym joshy plays songs on tat mp3.
I sing: half e tym? or is it most of e tym?
I cry: *skip*
Im not always: bitchy like how josh n uma says i am
I write: weneva i feel lyk it. at werk esp.
I confuse: no i dun:)
I need: ghee dosai, donuts, hot chocolate, blanket, full blast air con, etc!
I should: start saving $$ lar. seriously... my 21st is cumin *gasps
I start: at nyp library
I finish: here s well:)
haaa.... noe wat.. i think im 100% better den wat i previously was lar! thks to da ppl im blessed wit, in ma life. good n bad.
da bad made me stronger..
da good made n make me happy..
n
i love u uma, fer all tat support, kisses n dates:)
n
i loved dempsey hill joshy.. n all e other things of cos:)
i really nid to say tis.
ryt now, i ve neva felt happier, although im broke:)
i cant wait fer e weekend...*does a lil dance*
loves
:)
4:02 AM
Monday, October 12, 2009
ola ppl..
yeah yeah i noe. i haven been doin much justice to my online diary. my apologies. its js tat i ve been totally occupied. a good thing actually. keeps my mind off alot of unnecessary things. my life over e past 3wks has been hectic n completely mono. work, dance, home. n ramesh anne prac is freaking exhausting..bu fun lar..
i ve not been dancing for quite tym.. am quite rusty i guess. so i was having abit of a hard time wen i started again, esp da flexibility n remembering da three songs part.. tis fer e diwali eve show on vasantham. live some more. hopefully, HOPEFULLY i dun screw up. otherwise its ok lar... i ve not found ma comfort zone yet. maybe cos im like a newbie ther.. takes tym lar.
yadayadayada.. kk i sound boring. lol. i so badly wanna club lar.. nid to freak out abit. i ve got no diwali tis yr. guess im jus gonna indulge in some shopping therapy next week:) alot of things have been happening lar.. i hardly haff tym to meet ma frenx. i sorta miss em. feel cut off from alot of ppl. hopefully they understand n dun say im bain ignorant or sth.
toodles.
o n simba, thk u fer tat constant reminder n bragging to update. lol:)
i noe its tuff at werk. yr a strong twit. at least fer yr size:) loves!
enjoy da pix.
:)
5:56 PM
Saturday, September 5, 2009
i did this the last time n left in a foul mood.. jus wanted to do it again to c if my mood changes for any beta:
I AM: not feeling good.
I WANT: importance, attention.
I WISH: i cud jus go sumwher far far away frm everyone.
I HATE: ignorance. bein treated lyk crap.
I MISS: smiling genuinely. n tat overwhelming happy feeling in me.
I WONDER: i really wonder..
I HEAR: clifton tokin to mum.
I REGRET: letting myself be so emotionally distressed.
IM NOT: happy.
I DANCE: weneva i feel lyk it.
I SING: out loud weneva i feel like it.
I CRY: often these daes.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: tat heppi person u see.
I WRITE: cos ppl refuse to listen to me tok.
I CONFUSE: myself.
I NEED: peace. love. huggs. yummy food. nites out. laughter. cl**ton
I SHOULD: go fer a fagg brk now.
I START: feeling terrible.
I FINISH: feeling worse.
:)
12:33 AM
i was so wrong bout leisure lar.. no outings, no make up shopping. bot 1 jeans, clubbed on last sat.. best of all, NO donuts. sob:(
i ve not been feeling too good. yeah, am noisy as usual. its inborn i guess. but i jus feel lost. sumtyms i jus tink effort n tries are not appreciated. n wen i cant take it anymore n make noise..im perceived to be complainin. mad wat..i complain for no reasons wat! wth..y wud i rant so much if i dun make any sense. theory is, u jus din get my point or u jus refuse to understand. but i ll still get blamed. god damn. im gonna try, sincerely try, to jus keep to myself. maybe tat ll make ppl realise e diff..
its sat again. i wonder wats in store fer me today.. have got no plans n i dun feel one bit happy. maybe i am complainin. i shud stop. really. dun let anything get to my head. system shud jus shut down. switch off!
:)
12:25 AM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
stupid blogger has to become troublesome. jus wen i wanna post a proper post n wen ive got so much to rant.
so annoyed:(
:)
8:47 AM
tis is my first proper post since ive started blogging again. i din have time over e past few weeks. but i do not have an intention to let tis one die tis tyme:)
Anyway, time for updates.
today is one proper off day, a proper sunday, to be precise.i woke up close to 2pm after a good nite sleep n till now have only done a few chores at home and lazed aroun. i have realised since 6 july, tat tis nice nap n laziness thingy happens rarely.lol. life fer me has been pretty mono n tirin since i started werk. sleep has become leisure n partying or joyous outings has becum wonders. bein on da independant side n werkin for my own moolah is one thing im happy bout, but havin no tym fer myself is one bad bad thing:(
Ryt,enuff of whinin alredi.i ve got a few things i jus nid to get off ma chest. sumtymsi wonder how far u should allow friendship to intrude into your personal life? i mean, at e end of e day its yr life. is it wrong if ur not aroun for a fren who din heed advice a no of tyms, puts foot into sh*t n falls again? or isit ryt if u still stay by a fren knowing she has put her foot into sh*t again, though u ve advised few tyms bout sth u feel is wrong(yr fren feels otherwise of cos)..how badly would u allow quarrels to affect da depth of friendship? on my part, i jus tink, as a fren i should noe da limits to interfere into a fren's personal issues n i shoud be aroun fer my fren to fall back on wen she falls, weda she has erred or not, despite da no of tyms i ve advised. well, if tats wrong, correct me sumbody! n somehow, sum ppl dun feel da same way. opinions vary n i dun blame em.otherwise, i lately felt at a point of tym tat i ve let frens too deep to dominate my life. but now, i feel beta. ive got a grip of ma own life. i'd rather make decisions on ma own n i noe i will not repeat mistakes i ve made in de past.
Updates:
Werk has been good so far. i like e atmosphere actually. da ppl make me happy:) but ther are tyms i felt irritated larr.. iyaa tat happens everywher so i wont complain. jus tat im getting a lil sick of da 8 to 5 routine life im leading..its becuming a lil boring.
lol. pay is next week n i cant wait! i so need to go get my superr short hair done. wanna go swimming, clubbing, shop fer jeans n 2 dresses n make up, wanna stay out,get drunkk n sing loudd loudd! so long since i did all tat..o, not forgetting my donuts as well. yummy.. im getting excited alredi!.
currently this n my family have been keeping me busy. i look forward to leisure in da following week.blogger is bein a bit*h.So am gonna log off already.
till ma next post. loves:)
:)
6:59 AM
