Saturday, September 5, 2009
i did this the last time n left in a foul mood.. jus wanted to do it again to c if my mood changes for any beta:
I AM: not feeling good.
I WANT: importance, attention.
I WISH: i cud jus go sumwher far far away frm everyone.
I HATE: ignorance. bein treated lyk crap.
I MISS: smiling genuinely. n tat overwhelming happy feeling in me.
I WONDER: i really wonder..
I HEAR: clifton tokin to mum.
I REGRET: letting myself be so emotionally distressed.
IM NOT: happy.
I DANCE: weneva i feel lyk it.
I SING: out loud weneva i feel like it.
I CRY: often these daes.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: tat heppi person u see.
I WRITE: cos ppl refuse to listen to me tok.
I CONFUSE: myself.
I NEED: peace. love. huggs. yummy food. nites out. laughter. cl**ton
I SHOULD: go fer a fagg brk now.
I START: feeling terrible.
I FINISH: feeling worse.
:)
12:33 AM
i was so wrong bout leisure lar.. no outings, no make up shopping. bot 1 jeans, clubbed on last sat.. best of all, NO donuts. sob:(
i ve not been feeling too good. yeah, am noisy as usual. its inborn i guess. but i jus feel lost. sumtyms i jus tink effort n tries are not appreciated. n wen i cant take it anymore n make noise..im perceived to be complainin. mad wat..i complain for no reasons wat! wth..y wud i rant so much if i dun make any sense. theory is, u jus din get my point or u jus refuse to understand. but i ll still get blamed. god damn. im gonna try, sincerely try, to jus keep to myself. maybe tat ll make ppl realise e diff..
its sat again. i wonder wats in store fer me today.. have got no plans n i dun feel one bit happy. maybe i am complainin. i shud stop. really. dun let anything get to my head. system shud jus shut down. switch off!
:)
12:25 AM
